July 23, 2024
started 7:49pm.
I slept a much needed 10 hours last night yet I am still tired. If I'm typing uncharacteristically it might have to do with the fact I just watched 3 or 4 episodes of House MD and Gregory House himself is currently directing my internal monolouge. Anyways, this is my first blog! If you couldn't tell already my website is not looking too shabby. I will try my hardest to make it look as pristine as possible and if that never happens, I either became a boring adult or I've killed myself. See? I have commitment. Speaking of becoming an adult, that's happening far quicker than I'd like. I bought a car (my beautiful, well used, 2007 Chrysler 300) with the help of my twin, Medic. I got my driver's liscense on July 1st. I opened up a bank account yesterday and now am in possesion of a debit card (I've already made 2 online purchases). So, with all these things happening I figured now would be a good time as ever to start blogging. My brain runs at 200mph so these thoughts and feelings flee my head rapidly. I'm still the horrid, self loathing and pathetic man you all know me as, except now I can drive and have easier access to cool stuff.
ended 8:00pm
Nov 14, 2024
started 8:20pm
Huzzah! I have returned! There was a blog entry here before, but I DELETED IT because I was EMBARRASSED (go figure). Not much has changed since the previous entry, though. At least I don't think so. Same job, same car, still utterly bitchless but at least a little less depressed I think. MY HEAD HURTS SO BAD I don't know what prompted me to make another entry tbh. The yearning is EATING ME ALIVE or maybe I'm just lonely. I'll be honest yearning is a lot more fun when there's actually someone there to yearn FOR, BUT NOT WHEN THEY'RE ALWAYS OFFLINE. Not complaining, they got their own stuff going on, good for them, makes the interactions all the more impactful. Maybe that's all it is. A curiosity. Wanting to get to know someone better, not romantic attraction. I've never been good at telling the difference between the two. 99% sure I'm some form of aromantic unfortunately. Not much else to say, but blogging's fun I wanna do it more!!!!
ended 8:24pm